So I'm finally posting on the blog. Summer is ticking away with .  We have tried to keep the kids busy with things. Taking hikes, (unless it's short they complain), making fruit flags, going to One Republic concerts, and going out to breakfast for all you can eat french toast! It's hard keeping everyday occupied. I am so grateful for the friends the kids have to play with on the days we just stay home. I hope they aren't driving the other families too crazy. I will let the kids bring their friends over here and there and let them hang out! They always seem to forget to warn me so I can put a hat a first. I think I  have traumatized a few children in the neighborhood! I hope the kids have been able to make some good memories of this year despite the tough ones. They mean so much to me and I have moments I get overwhelmed. Will I get to be there for Myra's first date? Will I get to see Mateen play football ? Will I get to see Tremaine get his black belt? What will Taytum grow up and enjoy doing? Will I get to be a part of it here on Earth?  Do they know how proud I am of them and what they are becoming. I know this is selfish of me, but I want to be alive to experience their joys and pains. Their highs and
lows. To tuck them in at night.  To scratch their backs in the morning to wake them up for football! I have had a hard time staying positive especially when the anxiety gets to me. You just wish things could go back to normal sometimes. So there you have it I am not this amazing person to look at and admire. I fall short many times when I emotionally overwhelm myself. I can't keep it together. So I stay in my room until I can put it together. I  get up with that hope that things are going to work out. Things are going to work out. I try to remember some of the spiritual experiences I had in the hospital that brought peace to my soul that things were going to be ok. I just need to press forward with  faith and hope. We have to wait a couple months to scan where the cancer has been in the past, so I think if I knew things were fine my anxiety and fear would be good. I'm so touched by those people who have reached out to us to help us financially. It's overwhelming such a blessing to see so many good people take time out of their lives to help us out a little bit.  I don't know how to say thank you enough. I have tried to stay up on it with thank you cards or texts, but I know I have missed some people and I just hope that God blesses them in many good ways!!




So my sister sent me them miles for June so I will post  them for y'all.

                                                                 January--2,858
                                                                 February--5,921
                                                                 March--12,537
                                                                 April--7,603
                                                                 May--7,470
                                                                 June--6,114
                                                                TOTAL--42,480!!
This is so awesome what everyone is doing and I hope it has blessed your life physically, emotionally, somehow made you a happy healthier person by getting out and doing something. I started running a little bit. It is slow,but it gets me back to my destination faster. :) No matter what I do I just can't walk as fast as I can trot there! So be ready at the 5k. I'll be jogging some of it. It will be great to see friends and family there where can cheer each other on and support everyone in their own way!! Don't forget to sign up. Thanks Becky and everyone else who is helping out! Here is the link.      https://www.facebook.com/events/744484095601774/?ref=22  Hope it works from here! :)